Reflection and Anticipation with 34 days left of fundraising!
From Point A to Point 'Me'
Last week, my coworkers and I shut our doors to the public to hold an internal Diversity, Equity, and Inclusion training focused on "Legacy and Purpose" through the lens of Pixar's Soul.
For some time now, I've been joking that Top Surgery is going to be the spark that awards me my "Earth Pass" - my passion for living.
About halfway through the training, my coworker prompted each of us to write a letter to our future selves. I started the letter "What's good, future Jo?" - still skeptical of my willingness to participate.
Then exactly 3 seconds later my eyes started doing that exceedingly annoying thing where they pool and then spill out immense amounts of liquid - smearing what I was actively realizing to be my first time greeting my post-op self, the version of myself I've been anticipating for so long.
The version of myself with a spark for life.
Now only 58 days until surgery, I'm in a bit of shock that this is actually happening. I've zeroed in on getting to this point for so long, I kind of forgot that I get a whole damn life to live after surgery.
For the first time, surgery doesn't feel like the destination, but rather the gateway to the rest of my life - the gateway to start living anew.
This transition feels akin to consciously processing my own reincarnation; a reality in which I am both my own ancestor and my own descendent.
To parent, conceive, and birth myself - and to be aware of the process the whole damn time.
As I prepare to welcome my new self into this world, I've noticed I've begun curating a nursery of sorts, composed of heirlooms to pass down to myself:
Clothes to offer gender euphoria at each stage of recovery
New playlists focused on grounding in the present
Pre-made meals and recipes that heal the soul
A "Transition Alter" of books that mobilized transition
A vessel to deposit new dreams and desires
Each of these embody my intention to courageously enjoy living; to take this next walk of life grounded in presence, innocent curiosity, reciprocal love, and unwavering authenticity.
As I continue into the final month of fundraising, I feel these four pillars taking form, inviting me home to myself.
Thank you to each of you for providing ears, arms, and hearts to hold me through this transition.
Each of you are co-curators in Creating Corvus - and I am oh so grateful.
Milestones
Went to my first PCP appointment in 7 years!!!
Pre-op Clearance Scheduled
Plane tickets Purchased !
58 Days 'til Reincarnation - $450 left to go!
That breaks down to:
$14/day
2, $7 donations per day!
April 14 - Surgery Fees Due In Full
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